Recitals in august. Meaning its been pushed forward and somehow that makes it seem much nearer than it was before. Even though the timetable is considerably lighter than before, i'm already to feel so many things pounding at the back of my mind already.
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Things in general arent going too badly i guess.. pretty smooth.. But i am definitely not at peace at all. Just waiting now and hoping that soon i'll really be sitting on top of everything in my charge and being able to be more relaxed.

Or maybe its not enough. I dont know.
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Then theres the issue of doing things i really am into wholeheartedly. Would it get in the way of my priorities? Right now i'm assuming so, i dont want to muck around with my long term goals so everythings on hold. just maybe i could get down to it..
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I dont know if i'm going a little mad or whether i'm just upset over something. But i think i'm losing control of my emotions. And its really irritating to not even be able to just be more loose, and to not blow up inside when something really small gets to me.

Damn. I'm really kind of in a mess now. Time to unstuck (?) myself. Determination is key.
posted by halfpastfour- at 8:05 PM [edit]